Emo emo emo. Sighh.

So many people keep asking me ' Where you going for your bday?' , ' How you going celebrate ?' , ' You going out with who?' . And damn, i`ve got no answers (-___-") Sighh. At the bus stops, i`ve seen the advertisments, ' Ask for anything on may 18 !'. Gosh, if i really can, i would ask for nothing but just for him to spend it with me. But i know that aint gonna come true luhs. So its just wishful thinking on my part. Humpff.

I miss you so damn much boy. Was on the cab with sister ytd. Went past Plaza Sing, Cathy and all. So so many memories came flooding back. Rmb the time when we had too much time on our hands but yet did not want to go home and we walked from plaza sing all the way to city hall ? And we wanted to go to the highest hotel in singapore but ended up embarassing ourselves? Hahs. We have not been there yet.. Sighh. Pls do not go with her can? You said you wanted me to be the first girl to go with you =( I have sooo many things i wanna do with you but yet do not have the chance anymore. I dont know why god is so cruel to me. He made me so ugly and fat, and he did not even give me the chance to be with the one i love. Whyy ? Did i do something wrong? Hais. I really miss the way we hug each other to sleep. That night, when we hugged, thou i hesitated at first but once we hugged, i really did not want to let you go. I wished we could remain like that forever. You know how i felt when we hugged? Im know im a bitch to be saying this, but i cant wait for you and your gf to break up. Its not because i wanna be back tgt with you but because i rather see you single den loving someone else. I really dont see how you can put down all our memories just like that. Even if you do not love me anymore, why cant anything in our one year 10 mth r/s hold you back? Even if there is really nothing, den how about the times we spent playing gb before we got tgt? arghs ! I really cant forget you. I hope i get into a deep coma or smth and when i wake up, i`ll forget everything including you, our love... Boy, one day when i really disappear from your life, its not because i`ve forgotten you or have stopped loving you but because you`ve really disappointed me too much. I cant always be there for you forever, but i will as long as i can and as long as you want me too. I love you boy.


Werent we suppose to be this sweet? I miss us. Do youuu ?

我真的睡不着
想你每分每秒
对你的爱灭不了
你的爱是毒药
只有你治得好
但你却绝情走掉...